I tried hard to communicate kindly and what was necessary in a thoughtful way today. Completed meditations today and yesterday but didn’t realize I had skipped Monday and Tuesday. That was a good reminder not to forget even on packed work days. Glad I didn’t fight with Maddie on her Ortho retainer or making her go to swim. Did a good job staying present with kids. |
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I obviously failed in multiple ways: not communicating about taking Jack to swim, asking Matt to take him on just a bad day for it and then using Matt to qualm my insecurities and just annoying him without thinking of his feelings when it failed. I know that that irritated him and I just didn’t take the time to think about him when I was in crisis about something that does not matter at all. I was treating it like an 8 problem when it was a 1 and then only because I was irresponsible if u left my door open/placed it somewhere weird in my rush. |
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Did a better job asking for help. I was really irritated when Matt complained about the boxes. From his perspective I’m sure it was annoying for me to leave the box and then see the box he thought I was referring to and find things he thought i had ordered. From my perspective I had worked very hard, leaving for work a half hour early to do my oil change, started meal prep, organized Maddie’s camp stuff, blocking my schedule to take the kids to a birthday party which when I asked if you could drop them off said you’d prefer not to, and received no gratitude and just more negative feedback.
I see how instead of organizing the kids toys I could have organized the boxes at that time and it would have been better.
I am glad I feel like so far I’m doing a very good job of prioritizing family over training but still staying on task enough to get a pace I hope to be proud of. |
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Was not very thoughtful with Maddie wanting to do things and telling Matt about Maddie’s ice skating performance. Glad I didn’t argue and accepted feedback and told Matt when my feelings were hurt. I knew Matt always thought the Guinness thing was stupid so I felt a little down when he said I should have thought about my mom seeing it before I did it and posted where family could see and guilty that our family could be at risk from her and I put everyone in harms way. Matt had a good point that nothing changed by her telling me she knows. Had lots of flashbacks to her kidnapping us and the police taking us to our dads/her stealing my cat. |
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