I feel ashamed at how imperfectly this is going.
A mantra that keeps returning is "success begets success" and "failure begets failure"
Success is setting up mentally. I won't just do it because there is money on the line or ego and pride.
I need to pray as indicated by the time of day - morning and evening. And to incorporate my affirmations.
There's a reason sports teams get emotionally prepared before a game - not just mentally prepared. I fail when I don't participate in emotional buy in.
I fail when I think it's just about the money. Then shame sets in when I fail once, which prevents me from wanting to take ownership of the next try. It's a virtuous cycle - or a vicious cycle.
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It’s one thing to be disappointed in yourself, another to externalize it or adopt an attitude of defeatism and say something like “this isn’t for me”.
This is for me. I will reset and re-tool for this week. The following tools are at my disposal:
1) affirmations
2) sabbath
3) schedule
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Failed today - sleeping in till 8:20AM - went to bed at ~8 so I slept for about 12 hours. that's entirely too much sleep. I have a headache and a bout of shame.
Another day. |
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Adjusting to the sleep schedule nicely. Yesterday I had a much easier time feeling awake and doing work with out impulse to sleep.
Feeling similarly this AM.
Taking Oracle exam today! |
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