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Week 27 of 52
bignigey01 commits to:
No masturbation for a year
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Last reported: Success
Next report due:
March 27
11:00 PM GMT
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My Commitment Journal
 bignigey01
March 21, 2026, 11:34 AM
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| Haven’t had many urges this week. But I have experienced some in the last 24 hours by thinking of pornstars such as Lela Star. It feels as though the novelty of woman I’ve met whom I fantasize about (Nicole Donnelly) has worn off. I fantasized about her taking my virginity through her own disbelief that I have yet to have sex. Going to RNB bingo last weekend was initially anxiety inducing but I realised I was just going there to see what it was like. Essentially, lowering the stakes of the whole thing. I’ve signed up for another since where this time i will try and approach women when they’re taking photos of each other. Basically as an excuse to offer taking a pic of them together. I have had the urge recently to remove the block to Google chrome to cure my curiosity in looking at porn. But I’m glad I didn’t give in. | |
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bignigey01
March 14, 2026, 7:41 AM
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| Now my urges point towards Nicole Donnelly, someone I haven’t seen in years. Her curvaceous figure is literally my type so I’ve fantasized about her offering to take my virginity so I have some experience with sex. Doubt we’d ever meet, but she she’s definitely someone I’m attracted to. I’ve imagined cumming all over her ass or her face as well as her stomach. I do think it’s healthier to fantasize about her than the pornstars at least. I’d imagine I’d fantasize about her more if I met her in person. | |
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bignigey01
March 7, 2026, 8:53 AM
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| Hardly had any urges this week even though I have felt stressed due to potentially having to vacate the property. Still have certainty that riding these urges won’t be enough once this sobriety period is over. Coach Kyle was able to do this because he was actively approaching women, so this is something I will need to do eventually. | |
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bignigey01
February 28, 2026, 7:31 AM
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| My urges have signalled now towards the likes of Monica Sweetheart, Nikki Benz and Jewels Jade. It seems my brain is trying to go through a back catalogue of previous pornstars I’ve ever masterbate to. The urges aren’t gonna stop even after this sobriety is over. The endgame really is approaching women so I’ve signed up to a couple of evens in Newcastle to take things up a notch. | |
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