Well, that's the end of the four week challenge. It's amazing how much more comfortable I feel with getting work done than I used to. I think I've come away with some really useful takeaways I'll keep in mind with me moving forward:
1. "Don't do it just this one time" instead of "Just this one last time"
2. Visualizing warmth and affection from yourself does a great job in removing the impetus to seek pain reduction
3. Starting the day off right is so important - this means getting a good night's sleep and avoiding news aggregators/social media in the beginning of the day. |
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Well guys. This is a crazy week. Lots of sleep deprivation but I made it happen. I made it work. I have made some breakthroughs that I think really made a difference. Simply put:
1. Give myself warmth and loving care when I'm experiencing an urge.
2. Avoid media and phone beginning of the day.
And that's it! Works so well. Can't wait to see if it pans out this week too. |
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I had a life coaching session through Stanford yesterday and he recommended that when I’m experiencing an urge, I visualize sunlight warming my inside soul, and to give myself that loving kindness I’d give a friend in the same situation. Sounded weird, but today when I was experiencing an urge, I was all set to give in and break it and when I did that visualization, it completely turned the urge off. It was like a light switch, and I haven’t had even a single thought to break it the rest of the day. So crazy and awesome, feels like a real breakthrough because nothing I’ve tried so far has been as effective as this! |
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I'll start with the positive - I'm distracting myself less now than at any other time this past year. My social media use is at a yearly low, and I'm actually feeling really optimistic and happy on a day to day basis. I have the focus and ability to finish my homework early, which hasn't ever happened before during my time at Stanford. I've been exercising and meditating almost every day for the last two weeks. My sleep has been really consistent, more so than in months. Emotionally and physically, I actually feel really good. Lowering my use of social media and porn + sleeping better has a really, really positive effect on my mind.
But I still succumbed to the urge. I still couldn't hold out for 7 days. When the urge was at its highest, I remember thinking: "I should call a friend," but I always talked myself out of it. They're too busy. They don't have time. They'll be annoyed. The urges always happened from late morning to afternoon, which is exactly when the friends I'd call are working and I don't want to bother them. Maybe those were good excuses. But.... even though it's hard to admit, there's a part of me that actually wanted to fail the challenge. I didn't even attempt to do any of the other activities I'd committed to last week when I failed.
Ideas & Reminders to myself:
1. Surf the urge
2. Change locations - go sit in the bedroom where Nicole is when the urge arises
3. Write each day for 10 minutes and be sure to mention how you felt that day.
4. On Tuesday and Wednesday, find a friend you can call in the middle of the day.
5. "Just this one time" => "Be strong this one time"
6. Have a passion project teed up on a different desktop at all times so that you can just switch to it easily.
I feel guilty. Trump's super PAC is now $200 richer because of me. But there's benefit I'm experiencing regardless. Okay. I got this.
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